It’s been ages since I’ve sent out a New Years note, and I’ve wondered why. It seems the last time I remember sending one out was before I had Ali. Forgive me, if I end up seeming sappy or even strange. I suppose I enjoy analyzing these sorts of things, and every so often it’s nice to have folks to peek in with me. What better time than the New Year. Recently, I had a funny experience. One that in some ways made me want to cry, and in others, made me furious as a lion. I am a Leo after all……Yes, I hope all of you are shaking your heads at the hilariousness of me using this line.
I had a phone interview with a woman who essentially told me that I did not have the proper energy to be part of her community. I was sending out negative vibes, and obviously I needed to come to terms with the negative spirit that had overtaken my life. How she deducted this on the phone is beyond me, but it completely set me off.
As I am currently thinking about going to Tucson for the next couple of months, it reminded me of a funny experience I had there many years ago in which two fairly crazy people (in my book) told me: You are in love with me (both of them; even though I had a boyfriend), you are satan (one of them), the stars told them that this is so (both of them)
I will tell you that I am not beyond believing that there are many things that I do not know about life, and that perhaps it is possible that there are negative energies in the world, and they can overtake people…..BUT…..rarely, do I believe the people who tell me this. They do leave me feeling unsettled though……how foul!!!!!! Which made me think of the second thing that happened in Tucson, and helped me deal with how strange that time was. A gentleman walked up to me on the street one day and introduced himself. He quite simply told me that he had been sent to tell me something, and this is what he said (as best as I can remember) “Do not believe everything people say about you, and listen to your dreams; they will tell you everything you need to know.” and then he just as simply walked away from me. Sure, it might not floor most people, but it was exactly what I needed to hear at that moment…..it probably would have meant absolutely nothing if he had come to say this to me at another point in my life, and strangley enough I have had some life changing dreams since that talk. Dreams unlike any I had ever had before. Does it mean something? Hell, if I know, but I sure do find it interesting.
My resolution for 2011?……listen to my dreams, and live them…….as long as they are to my liking. *smiles*
What are your resolutions?